They say it gets easier at the three month mark and for the most part, "they" are right. However, there are still days where it feels like I'm back to the first few weeks. Non-stop screaming, fussing, tantrums, where Chester wakes up, won't sleep, and is angry all day.
Today was one of those days and it hasn't gotten easier to cope. He woke up at 8 am screaming. Not sure the reason. Babies apparently just do that for no rhyme or reason. lol... I changed him for what felt like, a bazillion times. Again, something that I haven't had to do for a month or so. By 4 pm, I was EXHAUSTED. Usually I haven't required a nap. And when I am tired, I can't sleep anyway as I'm so anxious about a lot of things right now. Today though, I could hardly keep my eyes open. I thought I'd try something different so I scooped a yowling Chester up and brought him into the bed with me. I propped up the pillows on Tim's side like a fort, and put him down in the middle. I know a lot of people say it's bad to sleep with a baby, but I am not worried. I am a very light sleeper, and I don't move. Chester was pretty wriggly when I put him in the bed. I had to put him a little lower so his windmilling fists wouldn't punch me in the face. He wouldn't go to sleep so I got his pacifier, grabbed his A+A blankie and he started to quiet down. I passed out and I guess he did too. I woke up two hours later, still in the same exact spot I had fallen asleep in, flat on my back at the very edge of the bed, and Chester was still asleep but woke up when I started stirring. It was lovely to wake up with my little man. And such a treat. I always wish that Tim would wake up with me, but he seldom does as he goes to bed so late. Now I have a new little man to wake up with. =)
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